A long while
It has been a while since I blogged. My schedules were really quite full and i had no interest or time to blog again. so a brief recount of good and (mostly) bad things that happened...
since April, well bball lost to some-school-whose-name-i-cannot-recall in the Nike league. sad loss... not what i would consider a good end to basketball in ri... but none the less, the team had fun, i had fun. good enough then. a regrettable regret is that we were not able to win bball gear which included shoes i think. shoes really cost a bunch, would love to get some for free but, oh well, no use crying over spilt milk. time to move on.
syf came and despite our hard work and hours we spent, the frigging judges gave us silver... not that they gave a lot of ppl gold... only 3 got gold, 1 gwh. at least we were in the finals. we picked ourselves up, tried harder for the finals and the performance at rj. the first time i actually saw the coach, i did not really like him... or the atmosphere in hua hui. maybe it is just us being there as guests. but what the heck, slowly some of them opened up their frosty carapace, and actually talked to me! imagine that... :D (well... never mind. poor attempt at sarcasm fails)
so on the first night of performance, one of them told me that one jc's performance was similar to ours, and wondered if ours was original. i was confused and did not really think much abt it. a coincidence. (ppl are so good at throwing unexplainable things to coincidence). the next morning was the finals. guess what, acjc had the same coach as us and their act was basically a rip off. i did not like the lack of respect for our time, but what's done is done. however some idiot sec one who was boot licking the coach previously now took a 180 turn and started to spew this little gossip along with his own unworthy opinion to everyone he sees, including the rj chairman. seldom do i feel disgust and repulsion to someone but this time he crossed my limits (actually he did do some other disgusting acts which really puts ppl off. i shall not mention it as it is too revolting for my blog). god bless ri and cdc in the year 2010 when he becomes a sec 4. hopefully he changes, but if he does not...
so back to a more pleasant topic: the performance went rather well, except for the fact that the rj ppl made us feel extra all the way. so we insisted on lai ye. vg bitched around saying that her responsibility is over for the year and everything must be up to us. shdnt have mentioned her... she revolts me more than u-noe-who (read up there if u dun). she shirks from everything we try to put on her, including a signature (so that rgs can come act with us). the hypocrite then says something abt not not trusting us but she doesn't want the others to come after her if things screw up. why the **** doesn't she just **** off, get out of our lives and let us have a better teacher in charge. yeah get the **** out of ri as well cos we cannot stand u being our form teacher, or even being in the same school (or compound) as us. oh yeah, the Chinese depart can do the same, cos WHO THE **** COMES UP WITH SUCH RETARDED AND IDIOTIC MARKING SCHEME DESIGNED FOR 5 YEAR OLDS WHO HAS A TOTAL LACK OF INFERENCE SKILL?! only ppl as retarded as the above mentioned group.
after venting my anger i shall get back to the correct time... which is after the rj performance. (we got gold for finals btw) basically we are now doing new scripts cos we decided to scrap the old one. hoping for rgs to come (the chances r virtually nil now thx to a certain living being... NO NOT A HUMAN! SHE DISGRACES HUMANS AND OTHER ANIMALS AKA BITCHES, ALIKE). also hoping for the sec 3s to come up with another. our one is really controversial, but i shant tell ppl here cos there will be no suspence. i really wonder how ppl will respond to this, but what the heck, i shall just go ahead with it and see. it would be really bad if this affects our juniors... but we hope that it will not happen
currently, i am doing really bad in bio... somebody help me pls!!!! i am literally failling the subject. the first time in my life that i really fail a subject then (except for p1 when i did not noe english and got 0 for the entrance test. got 69 2 months later)... i don't what has gone wrong and that is the worst of it. if i do at least i can do something about it. dying and not knowing why is really tragic in my opinion.
somehow i am forcing myself to do pt and i hope it can last (cos i can sense wavering already after say a week?). 6 suicides and 1 finisher (hoping to make it 2) every other day. by the time i go back to training i hope that i can be fitter than ever and maybe, just maybe i can dunk! :D i tried to do another suicide pt (in chinese it is 跳楼自杀 :D）basically i hop up 10 floors to go home everyday... tough huh? i still have not done any yet but i shall try (then i can remove the finisher part)
this post is unlike my previous ones, cos such a long time has gone by and i need to sort things out. but i shan't break the trend and here comes emo stuff...
life has not gone the way i wanted it to be. first the bball, syf, tests and results. i try to deceive myself that these does not matter, i can always move on. but i am not feeling better. on the outside i may seem happy-go-lucky, or always cheerful. yeah, i guess i am such a person. but i am also a dark person with dark thoughts of life and death, only when i am alone, and catalysed by music. at times i wonder, if i am really alone in this world. i do not feel that anyone will be there for me if i fall. in fact i am falling and no one is here. it does not matter if this is really what i have to go through... i recall a time when i go home and play card games with myself. i pulled through that, and i can pull through this. opening up is not the way for me i guess. friends are not the way for me. it is just me myself and i.
Ooohhh
*I don't have no one*
*me, myself & I*,
listen
Allow me to take the blame
Everything I did, I did it all by myself, it was just *me, myself & I*
Listen, Couldn't believe the things that I went through,
because of all my wrong doings
it was *me, myself & I*
Ooohhh listen, tryin' not to worry about a thing,
but it's hard when I know I put it all on myself
it was *me, myself & I*
Ooohhh listen, cause all the trouble I got myself in,
it was up to me, couldn't depend on no one but
*me, myself & I* yeah...
Cause often times I feel like I'm all alone in this world and
*I don't have no one* but me *me, myself & I*
'Cause often times I feel like I'm all alone in this world and
*I don't have no one* but me *me, myself & I*
Ooohhh listen,
see I done left those streets alone,
half my niggas long, long gone and it's just me
*me, myself & I*
Listen, Ain't got nobody to turn to
Can't complain 'cause nobody can burn you, why must it be
*me, myself & I*
Ooohhh listen, even though it felt good to be alone
It didn't feel that good to walk in my home it just
*me, myself & I*
Ooohhh listen, Can't believe I'm on top of the world
But to me nothing feels the same no more, and i blame me
*me, myself & I*
'Cause often times I feel like I'm all alone in this world and
*I don't have no one*
but me *me, myself & I*
'Cause often times I feel like I'm all alone in this world and
*I don't have no one*
but me *me, myself & I*
So can you please tell me where my people at
It was from way back when I started with
I'm still tryin' to figure out where they went, and why is it
*me, myself & I*
'Cause the world keepin busy girl', as I go, put your right go and feel alone
It should be the other way around you know,
but it's just *me, myself & I*,
myself & II, me, myself & I *me, myself & I*Me, myself & II, me, myself & I *me, myself & I*
'Cause often times I feel like I'm all alone in this world and
*I don't have no one* but me
*me, myself & I*
'Cause often times I feel like I'm all alone in this world and
*I don't have no one* but me
*me, myself & I*
*Listen*
p.s. my longest post, 1.6k words... haha
Trudged off @10:54 PM